Beginning again

I turned 25 on Saturday. My birthday passed pretty uneventfully though I did have a girls night with some friends from church on Friday night and not one of those girls was a seminary student. How interesting.

For about three weeks now I've been feeling normal again. That's good. Even though I still have a few crying spells each week, they're not the hopeless desperate crying spells that I had a few months ago. Life has hope and meaning again, and when it seems like it doesn't, Jesus says it does, so I choose to believe Him instead of my feelings about the matter. I don't think that my life has gotten any easier in the past few months, but I'm definitely able to deal with the pain that I've been going through in a much clearer and open way. I'm a little nervous and anxious about the start of the school year, but I guess that's to be expected.

We're just finishing up our second summer session at UNO. It's been good teaching full-time but it's also been exhausting. My boss is trying to pressure me into teaching full time continually because we are getting at least 30 new students into the program, and they need more teachers, but I just don't want to give up the time that God has given me to learn about him. I desire to study and know more about Someone that I can never grasp in my hands or in my mind, yet I just want to know Him as much as I can while I have the opportunity. He's provided scholarships this year to take care of me in addition to my job. I know that God is at work, but living on faith in Him is not the easiest thing to do.

I've signed up for a pretty intense schedule I think. I'm taking Hermeneutics, Systematic Theology, and Intro to Greek. I'm really excited about these classes because it's stuff that I really want to know more about. It's hard to explain to people why I'm in this degree program or what I even plan to do with it. All I can say is that if my purpose on Earth is to glorify God and enjoy Him forever, then I might as well know as much about Him as He will reveal to me while I'm here on Earth.