What If?

Do you ever wonder how your life would be different, if you had made one decision differently? Last night I was thinking about how different my life would be today if I had taken French rather than Spanish in college. I took Spanish on a whim. I planned to take French, and then last minute I changed to Spanish because I thought it would be fun to try something new. I took French in high school.

Last night when I was teaching ESL, I thought about that. Would I even be teaching here at that church if I had taken French. I wonder if I would have double majored in French like I did with Spanish,
and might I have gone to an African country for summer missions rather than South America. I wouldn't have gone as a translator to Mexico twice last summer. I wouldn't have been able to translate at all for other people who have needed it in Ruston. It seemed like such a small decision at the time, but it has made a huge impact on my life.

However, during my Interpersonal Relationship Skills class, we talked about decision making, and the teacher said that many people have a problem with thinking that there is only one right decision and if you don't find that one right decision, it will completely devastate your life. I realized that I have this misconception. I always struggle with decisions and put them off until the very last minute because I'm always worried that I will make the wrong decision. When in reality, both could be equally good or bad depending on how God uses them.

So that's my struggle: trying to find the best decision and what God wants for my life when there may actually be two equally good decisions. Hopefully some day I will learn this. As of now, I still haven't learned it yet. I'm a work in progress.